top of page

I Didn't Cry When My Mom Died

Updated: Jul 8

When my mom died, I did not have a chance to say goodbye. Anxiously I rushed home from teaching. When I arrived there, I could read on my siblings’ faces that my mom had closed her eyes forever. I felt empty, guilty, and worthless. How did my mom transition from a materialistic world into a spiritual one? I was told that my mother opened her eyes, quickly glared around the bedroom, and immediately shut them for the last time. I wasn’t there. What did my mom feel when she did not see me? Did I let her down one last time? These questions dwell in my heart every day. Visions of my mother follow me wherever I go. How could I possibly forget the tenderness and depth of her love? When I was a grown man, my mother once said, “Tu sei stato la prima cosa bella della mia vita!” “You have been the first beautiful thing of my life!” How could her love be so immense? How could I be so cold and refrain from returning it? Was I afraid? Did love overwhelm me? Yet, I vividly remember the day when my mom undressed both my brother and me for a quick wash in the bagnarola, a small portable bathtub. The sun was piercing through our living-dining-bed room. I couldn’t have been more than five years old and I remember looking at my younger brother with protective eyes. My brother and I were wet but felt warmth. My mom was soaping both of us with gentle strokes. I didn’t mind sharing the bagnarola and my mom’s strokes. My mother’s cheeks were radiant with joy and pride. I thought, “My mom is beautiful .” I felt it, but I didn’t say it. Will I bring this vision with me when I take my last breath? Will my mom finally hear what I felt? I know that my thoughts are full of love. Yet, my unspoken words fail to be heard. Will I say, “I love you!” and finally cry?



 
 
 

Recent Posts

See All

6件のコメント


RJacobuLeceau
6月06日

With today's release, Longines is joining its Swatch Group siblings at Mido, Hamilton, and Certina in offering a "flyer/true" GMT in the ballpark of a value proposition. Unlike the caliber 80/Powermatic 80 variants link offered in the Mido Ocean Star GMT link (a watch I adore and own), the Certina Action DS GMT, and the Hamilton Khaki Aviation Converter GMT, today's release from Longines comes in a sub-43mm case size and is both chronometer-certified and link features a silicon hairspring.

いいね!

RJacobuLeceau
6月05日

I like the playful Air-King script, and link with the yellow, coral, link and powder-blue 41mm Oyster Perpetuals discontinuing at the same launch, I want to see the Air-King replace them with its lighthearted link approach.

いいね!

The TAG Heuer Monza will be sold exclusively at TAG Heuer boutiques, the brand's e-commerce sites, and in select retail stores. The Hodinkee Shop is link an authorized dealer for TAG Heuer; explore the collection here. For more information about link TAG Heuer watches, visit their website. TAG Heuer is link part of the LVMH group. Although LVMH Luxury Ventures is a minority investor in HODINKEE, we maintain complete editorial independence.

いいね!

A frantic, giddy phone call with my mom gave me the extra link boost of confidence I needed to just go link for it. The logical part of me couldn't believe I was making such a big purchase so impulsively, but it felt right. And it was the right link decision – my Santos is perfect for me.

いいね!

The new model comes in yellow or pink gold, or platinum, with the hand-wound 1917 MC link movement, as well as three versions with a skeletonized movement. This is the caliber 9626 MC, link and that version is available at launch in pink gold, as well as in platinum with or without diamonds. All six models have the dial rotated 90º from the usual position – which means all of them can be set down link on a nightstand or desk, and you can read the time off as you would from a clock.

いいね!
Post: Blog2_Post
bottom of page